He Will Make All Things New

Dear readers, Let me just reiterate that you are very dear.
If you were not very dear, I would not let you read this.
But you are dear. So I will let you read this.
If you're reading this blog, I assume you know me. You're probably aware of some of the good, bad, and very, very ugly events of my life.
Today, I would like to tell you about a very,very good one.
However, it might not be the kind of good news you'd expect.
A very important part of my life has changed.
And before you even start, No, I am not pregnant, catholic, or dying.
I'm simply changing my obligations and focusing on other things.
In other words, I'm not really in a relationship anymore.
Now before you get up in arms and get ready to chew someone out, let me ask you to refrain. I'm so glad things turned out this way. So is the other person involved. Life became too stressful for us and at our age, the obligations were just too much. I'm proud of the guy I love, and I think he made an extremely mature decision. Whoever he ends up with, be it me or someone else, she will be a very lucky woman indeed.
Do we still like each other? Yes.
But that's not the important part. We are best friends, first and foremost, and that's all that we will focus on for now.
Let me tell you what happened last night.
I was surprisingly happy at how things turned out, although there was a slight twinge of sadness. I guess the best way to explain it was that my brain was perfectly happy and content, but my heart was stuck in the pit of my stomach. I knew things were happening for the better, but at the same time I knew I'd miss the way they were. At that point, I knew what I had to do. I turned my nightstand light on and reached for my Bible. Normally when I need a quick uplifting, I'll go for the Psalms. So I turned to the Book of Psalms, and read the first one I stopped on.
What a perfect passage.
"Then I realized that my heart was bitter,
and I was all torn up inside.I was so foolish and ignorant—I must have seemed like a senseless animal to you. Yet I still belong to you; you hold my right hand.You guide me with your counsel, leading me to a glorious destiny. Whom have I in heaven but you? I desire you more than anything on earth.
My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever." Psalm 73: 21-26
After I read that, I turned off my light and thanked God for being who He is. I thanked Him for holding my right hand and guiding me. He knew what I needed better than I did. He will make all things new.
Ad astra per aspera, dear readers.
~Caroline